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Tuesday, July 7th, 2009
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11:11 am
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| Saturday, November 22nd, 2008
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9:51 pm
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i honestly believed in you
holding on
the days drag on
stupid girl
i should have known
i should have known
that i'm not a princess
this aint a fairy tale
i'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
lead her up the stairwell
this aint hollywood
this is a small town
<b>i was a dreamer
before you went and let me down</b>
now it's too late for you
and your white horse
to come around
<i>baby i was naןve
got lost in your eyes
and never really had a chance
i had so many dreams
about you and me
happy endings
now I know</i>
current music: taylor swift= kickass
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| Tuesday, September 23rd, 2008
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6:29 pm
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haha. i meant to update this yesterday but i didn't have time..
it's been awhile since i threw my head back and laughed as hard as i did. but that was just hilarious.
today was so funny too, britt was trying to do a leap in tap/jazz and it was so bad/funny that i couldn't breathe from laughing so hard.
life is okay. this weekend is going to be hell but whatever i just want to get it over with. my dad is becoming more and more difficult about college in cali and i'm really starting to worry that he won't let me go.
i talked to this kid today who used to be in our apf class, but i never paid attention to him. he's latino and i love his accent..anyways he's going out with this girl i know and she was yelling at him today when we were decorating the display box and he just took it. he's not the most attractive guy i've ever seen, but the more i watch him, the more i see how much a sweetheart he is. i guess i think i'm learning about what really matters with guys..maybe what they always say is actually the truth.
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| Thursday, August 21st, 2008
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10:30 pm
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i was never able to describe it before.
but i think i can pinpoint the feeling now.
when i am listening to that perfect song in the perfect moment, it's like i can feel something deep in my gut. it's not warm and fuzzy or anything, it's just like something is there deep inside my body and i can feel it.
but then it rises until it's like it hits the bottom my lungs or diaphragm because when i breathe, i feel the two interconnected or almost entwined causing a sort of synergy.
because of it, i feel that i am losing my breath when i am listening to that perfect song, when in actuality, it's just..stimulating my diaphragm, if you will.
why do i feel like that description is like some sort of scientific orgasm or something? haha. I'M NOT MAKING THIS UP.
the vibe of this album is SO GOOD. it's experimental and darker but still has this instilled strong, fighter attitude. i am not letting myself listen to all the songs until i'm done with my goddamn summer homework, though.
i was all shit school's starting but it's weird, now that i feel the attitude in these songs, i feel like they will help me out. it's funny how days before i was marvelling over coldplay's a rush of blood to the head album and some dashboard confessional songs or even tegan and sara but now that i have THIS i'm all move the fuck over!
you just feel it, or you don't. i could never explain it. not even the most beautiful words in the english language can compensate for the feeling. like an orgasm, or something.
nothing compares to it, absolutely nothing. it's not even music, it's fucking oxygen.
no, bad example because that conflicts with my previous analogy.
it's like...nope it's oxygen.
okay, now i'm getting melodramatic. I JUST CAN'T EXPLAIN IT, OKAY?
andrew has this belief, the same belief from siddhartha and from most native american stories..that everything in this world is connected. if nothing can help you make sense of your existence, make sense of this; every single being and object on this planet is part of a single consciousness that ascends above everything else. i fell more in love with this philosophy as the years progressed because the more you study history, the more this idea makes sense. i don't know if there's a god. i'm pretty sure there's no heaven, but i'm not really sure. i am one human being and i have accepted that i will never find all the answers, it's just not plausible. but i do have a true and resounding faith in the fact that we all small pieces of a great and beautiful being. and the more you bring together these small, seemingly insignificant pieces, the more this beautiful feeling of spiritual belonging will ring true within you. my beliefs have not changed that much since i was in middle school, except for this belief.
and you know what? it has made all the difference.
the more i listen to these songs, as opposed to songs of other artists, the more i can hear this very truth ring within the words and the music. and guess what? it makes all the difference.
whoa. dude i think i just had one of those epiphany moments!
or maybe i really am a crazy person..does it really matter? haha
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| Saturday, August 16th, 2008
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6:00 pm
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| Saturday, February 9th, 2008
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6:15 pm
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| Sunday, January 14th, 2007
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11:47 pm - music is my company
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( so tired )
current music: man i know you wanna let yourself go
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| Wednesday, October 11th, 2006
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3:37 am
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